My Dad had two surgeries this morning. One surgery was to removed his old pacemaker and the scar tissue surrounding it, the second to replace the pacemaker. From the text message that my sister sent me, he seems to be doing fine! I'm gonna give him a call later today to check on him and see how he's doing! Thank you to all of you who were saying prayers for him! It means the world to me!
I laid on the couch and cried half the night because I was so scared! I hate that I can't be there. I can't be closer! I know that he's ok with me not being there, I also know that if something happened to him and I wasn't there that I'd never forgive myself! It's a hard situation!
I'm not gonna focus on that though! For now, he's ok and that's all that matters to me!
Thanks again y'all!
What day is it? Meet Me Monday!
June 28, 2010
I'm losing track of my days! I'm not sleeping right at all. I've had about 45 minutes of sleep in the last two days. I'm not sure what's going on with that damn it! It's pretty damn bad when even Ambien isn't working anymore and your dr is looking at you like there is something seriously wrong with you lol!
The last time I went to see her she put me on these time released muscle relaxers because I'd been having really bad muscle spasms at night that were waking me up. I was told to take one of them at dinner time and that it would kick in around midnight. She said that along with the Ambien (CR) that I should sleep fine!
So I did what I always do when I get a Rx for something new. I Googled it! That scared the shit out of me because everyone who "reviewed" it (I didn't even realize people reviewed meds until I looked this one up lol) said it knocked them the eff' out. And they didn't even mention taking it with Ambien.
I'd had it for over a week before I finally decided I'd try it (after being up for 3 days with no sleep!!). Ya know what it did? Not a damn thing! I'm beginning to get desperate! But I'm beginning to understand (kind of) why my dr looks at me like I'm a junkie when I tell her the meds don't work lol.
I have been having a blast laughing at one of our dogs. OK, I laugh at both of them but one of them has been acting so funny lately! Bonsai is totally and completely in love with my husband y'all! I wish I could explain to y'all how she looks at him!
Bonsai is on the left, Gidgette on the right! Look at how she's looking at him!! She is ROTTEN!!
She will lay there like this as long as he is sitting there and she stares at him like the the whole time!
Lol she lays her head on his chest and just stares!!
I've got competition y'all! That huzzy wants my man! Hmmph!
This is her "We both know I've got him wrapped around my little finger!!" smile!
It's nothing but total adoration in her eyes!! It's like he's the only thing she see's. When he's in the room, she wants to be right next to him. When he goes to take a shower she lays outside of the bath room door and cries. When I'm up all night and he's in the room sleeping (lucky him!!) she does the same thing. It's hilarious!! I keep telling him that if he has to go out of town for a week she is going to die! She wont know what to do without him! It's really cute though!
On to the "Meet Me Monday!" If you're not sure what it's all about you can go here to read all about it!
These are this weeks questions!
1. Are you a collector of anything?
I realized while doing my spring cleaning this year that I (apparently) collect ink pens, nail polish and make up! I didn't even realize it until I started going through everything lol.
2. Do you have any tattoos or piercings?
4 tattoos - tramp stamp, upper back (between shoulder blades), lower stomach on the right side (that one HURT!!) and right ankle/top of right foot.
7 peircings - ears 2 times, navel, nose, and left tragus. (also had the right tragus done but it wouldn't heal right! Going to redo it when I go to Louisiana in September! I love that my Nephew can do my piercings now!!)
3. What is your favorite salad dressing?
Italian or Asian Sesame
4. What was the last thing that you ate?
Effin' hot dogs! (family joke!!)
5. What was the last movie that you saw?
I think it was Role Models!!
The last time I went to see her she put me on these time released muscle relaxers because I'd been having really bad muscle spasms at night that were waking me up. I was told to take one of them at dinner time and that it would kick in around midnight. She said that along with the Ambien (CR) that I should sleep fine!
So I did what I always do when I get a Rx for something new. I Googled it! That scared the shit out of me because everyone who "reviewed" it (I didn't even realize people reviewed meds until I looked this one up lol) said it knocked them the eff' out. And they didn't even mention taking it with Ambien.
I'd had it for over a week before I finally decided I'd try it (after being up for 3 days with no sleep!!). Ya know what it did? Not a damn thing! I'm beginning to get desperate! But I'm beginning to understand (kind of) why my dr looks at me like I'm a junkie when I tell her the meds don't work lol.
I have been having a blast laughing at one of our dogs. OK, I laugh at both of them but one of them has been acting so funny lately! Bonsai is totally and completely in love with my husband y'all! I wish I could explain to y'all how she looks at him!
Bonsai is on the left, Gidgette on the right! Look at how she's looking at him!! She is ROTTEN!!
Lol she lays her head on his chest and just stares!!
I've got competition y'all! That huzzy wants my man! Hmmph!
This is her "We both know I've got him wrapped around my little finger!!" smile!
It's nothing but total adoration in her eyes!! It's like he's the only thing she see's. When he's in the room, she wants to be right next to him. When he goes to take a shower she lays outside of the bath room door and cries. When I'm up all night and he's in the room sleeping (lucky him!!) she does the same thing. It's hilarious!! I keep telling him that if he has to go out of town for a week she is going to die! She wont know what to do without him! It's really cute though!
On to the "Meet Me Monday!" If you're not sure what it's all about you can go here to read all about it!
These are this weeks questions!
1. Are you a collector of anything?
I realized while doing my spring cleaning this year that I (apparently) collect ink pens, nail polish and make up! I didn't even realize it until I started going through everything lol.
2. Do you have any tattoos or piercings?
4 tattoos - tramp stamp, upper back (between shoulder blades), lower stomach on the right side (that one HURT!!) and right ankle/top of right foot.
7 peircings - ears 2 times, navel, nose, and left tragus. (also had the right tragus done but it wouldn't heal right! Going to redo it when I go to Louisiana in September! I love that my Nephew can do my piercings now!!)
3. What is your favorite salad dressing?
Italian or Asian Sesame
4. What was the last thing that you ate?
Effin' hot dogs! (family joke!!)
5. What was the last movie that you saw?
I think it was Role Models!!
Since I've been up all night anyway....
June 27, 2010
I figured since I've been up all night it might be a good time to answer some random questions, on second thought it's probably NOT a good idea, but I'm bored so whatev's! This is my first time participating in this meme, if you'd like to play along you can go check it all out here.
The Questions
1.If you had 5000.00 to spend on plastic surgery what would you have done?
I'd buy some boobs! And maybe a little microdemabrasion!
2. Do you watch Soap operas and if so what is your favorite and why?
Well, I didn't until my inlaws came down for a visit, they stayed for 4 months and my Mo in law is a huge GH fan so I kinda got sucked back in lol!
3. Favorite clothing brand?
American Eagle and Victoria's Secret clothes!
4. An afternoon shopping spree at your favorite store or maid service for a year?
Shopping! Duhh!!
5. would you ever vajazzle?
Um NO! He doesn't need it all decorated to appreciate it! Ha!
6. Favorite Disney Princess?
I honestly don't have one!
7. Last movie that made you bawl your eyes out?
The Blind Side I think
8. Have you ever broken any bones and if so what?
Nope!
A Little Therapy...
June 26, 2010
It's been a few days since my last post so I thought I should take the time and update this damn thing! Things with my oldest sister have gone from bad to worse! It's gotten so bad that I honestly thought I was going to have to block her on Facebook!
After the first phone call between us that I told y'all about I'd had enough. Like I said in my last entry, she can call me and vent anytime but when she calls me just to attack me...I'm not having it! I've never really stood up to her before, usually I just take it and then cry for hours afterwards but I'm not a kid and I deserve just as much respect as her.
Well Thursday she kept sending me messages on Facebook, I stopped replying to them because it just wasn't getting us anywhere and it was making my anxiety go through the roof. I'd been up for 3 days (YES! 3 effin' days!!) with maybe two hours of sleep (because of all of this).
So when my phone rang and I saw that it was her, I lost it. I answered my phone and said (OK! More like yelled) everything that was on my mind. Then I hung up. She called back, to ask me if I hung up on her. So, I went off again. I told her "I effin' hung up on you!" and I hung up again!
I don't know how to deal with irrationality! I just don't! Nothing I say to her is going to make her feel better. Nothing I say to her is going to make this go away so why even bother??
I haven't heard from her since except a text message to let me know that Dad's surgery is scheduled for Wednesday morning and that they've also found something wrong with Daddy's kidneys. They're still going to go through with the surgery and figure out the kidneys later. But they're not functioning right.
In between all of the messages on Facebook and the phone calls I'd called my other sister (the middle one) crying over all of this. I called my Dad and told him that I love him, but I don't want her calling me after his surgery. Not if she's going to be this irrational! He totally understood. Its sad that I have to worry him over this, just to get her to leave me alone.
I don't know what's going to happen when I go home in September but honestly, I'm not looking forward to it. She's not one of those people who lets go of things. She'll hold onto this forever. She'll hold onto this grudge she's got going on until I'm blue in the face! And there's nothing I can do to change it.
I swear, I've always joked that my family put the funk in dysfunctional but it's starting to get ridiculous!
Y'all, please keep my Daddy in your prayers!! Thanks for listening again!
After the first phone call between us that I told y'all about I'd had enough. Like I said in my last entry, she can call me and vent anytime but when she calls me just to attack me...I'm not having it! I've never really stood up to her before, usually I just take it and then cry for hours afterwards but I'm not a kid and I deserve just as much respect as her.
Well Thursday she kept sending me messages on Facebook, I stopped replying to them because it just wasn't getting us anywhere and it was making my anxiety go through the roof. I'd been up for 3 days (YES! 3 effin' days!!) with maybe two hours of sleep (because of all of this).
So when my phone rang and I saw that it was her, I lost it. I answered my phone and said (OK! More like yelled) everything that was on my mind. Then I hung up. She called back, to ask me if I hung up on her. So, I went off again. I told her "I effin' hung up on you!" and I hung up again!
I don't know how to deal with irrationality! I just don't! Nothing I say to her is going to make her feel better. Nothing I say to her is going to make this go away so why even bother??
I haven't heard from her since except a text message to let me know that Dad's surgery is scheduled for Wednesday morning and that they've also found something wrong with Daddy's kidneys. They're still going to go through with the surgery and figure out the kidneys later. But they're not functioning right.
In between all of the messages on Facebook and the phone calls I'd called my other sister (the middle one) crying over all of this. I called my Dad and told him that I love him, but I don't want her calling me after his surgery. Not if she's going to be this irrational! He totally understood. Its sad that I have to worry him over this, just to get her to leave me alone.
I don't know what's going to happen when I go home in September but honestly, I'm not looking forward to it. She's not one of those people who lets go of things. She'll hold onto this forever. She'll hold onto this grudge she's got going on until I'm blue in the face! And there's nothing I can do to change it.
I swear, I've always joked that my family put the funk in dysfunctional but it's starting to get ridiculous!
Y'all, please keep my Daddy in your prayers!! Thanks for listening again!
I said ROCK y'all!
June 23, 2010
Y'all totally rock! Thank you so much for your comments, your advice and your support! My last entry had me up all night. Actually I'm going on two days of no sleep. I'd already been up all night the night before and then my Sister called me with her craziness yesterday and after that I knew there was no way I was going to be able to sleep!!
I totally understand where my Sister is coming from. She is under an ungodly amount of stress and to be honest, I don't know how in the hell she does it. I've listened to her vent and rant every single time she's need me to. Yesterday, what she did, the things she said...that was an attack on me personally. And I'm finally in a place in my life where I'm just not willing to deal with that shit anymore.
I don't think she gets it. I don't think she understands how bad I beat myself up for not being there. For not being able to do more. I don't have any reason to feel guilty, or to beat myself up. But I do.
Anyway, I didn't intend to write this blog entry about all of that again. I honestly just wanted to thank all of you who commented. You guys don't know how much it helps sometimes to "hear" someone else's opinion of it!!
Thank you all!!
I totally understand where my Sister is coming from. She is under an ungodly amount of stress and to be honest, I don't know how in the hell she does it. I've listened to her vent and rant every single time she's need me to. Yesterday, what she did, the things she said...that was an attack on me personally. And I'm finally in a place in my life where I'm just not willing to deal with that shit anymore.
I don't think she gets it. I don't think she understands how bad I beat myself up for not being there. For not being able to do more. I don't have any reason to feel guilty, or to beat myself up. But I do.
Anyway, I didn't intend to write this blog entry about all of that again. I honestly just wanted to thank all of you who commented. You guys don't know how much it helps sometimes to "hear" someone else's opinion of it!!
Thank you all!!
I Don't Know Anymore, I Just Don't Know!
I got a text message from my oldest Sister today, basically telling me off. Because (apparently) I didn't answer my phone when she called. Don and I were both sitting here, my phone never rang. The text message was nasty. Very nasty. I was told to fuck off. I was told that I am selfish, that I live a "privileged" life, that it's not fair that I can have a life but she can't. I was told that I'm a horrible Sister and Daughter.
Needless to say, it pissed me the fuck off. I tried to call her but she just answered her phone screaming at me and then hung up on me. I tried to call my Dad to see what in the hell was going on, to make sure he's ok. She answered his phone and went off on me (I couldn't get a word in) for over 10 minutes before hanging up on me.
She's stressed out over money. She's stressed out because my Dad can (totally) be an ass sometimes. I've tried to help her as much as I can but I live in NC, they're all in LA. There's not a whole lot I can do from here.
I get it but I just don't get it. I understand her stress. In fact, I've let her call me and just vent any time she feels the need to. Because it felt like one of the few things that I could do to "help."
She actually said to me (today when she was going off on me) "You're the one that fuckin' wanted him to move from Hawaii to Louisiana in the first place, you BEGGED me to get him to move down here!!!"
WTF?? First of all, I didn't beg her to do a fuckin' thing. I most certainly did not beg her to talk my Father into moving down there. And even if I did, so what?
Seriously, I could go into the whole drawn out (3 fucking phone call) argument, but it doesn't even matter. It just pisses me off. I'm so used to her throwing it up in my face that I never do anything to help her that when she was having trouble helping Daddy pay his electricity bill, I asked Don if we could send the money to pay the bill. We paid the entire bill, not just her half. Don didn't even think twice, he just wrote the check. When she called me depressed because she had a date and didn't have any nice clothes to wear I went through my clothes and sent her two HUGE boxes of clothes (jeans, shirts, shorts, dresses, pj's, shoes and even a gallon ziplock bag full of make up) that cost us almost $60 to send. I'm so over it.
I've got a ticket to go home in September for two weeks. I could kick my ass for the two weeks. I mean, my Son is going to be working a good portion of the time that I'll be there so I was planning on spending some major time with my Sisters. But I don't even want to talk to my oldest sister at this point.
The anxiety is back FULL FORCE. My chest feels like there's an elephant sitting on it. I just don't know how to handle her anymore. I don't know what she expects from me anymore.
There's so much more going on with me, some things I'm trying to sort through that I'm not comfortable "talking" about here. So that's just more shit that I've got to hold in.
Family...who said you always have to love them?
Needless to say, it pissed me the fuck off. I tried to call her but she just answered her phone screaming at me and then hung up on me. I tried to call my Dad to see what in the hell was going on, to make sure he's ok. She answered his phone and went off on me (I couldn't get a word in) for over 10 minutes before hanging up on me.
She's stressed out over money. She's stressed out because my Dad can (totally) be an ass sometimes. I've tried to help her as much as I can but I live in NC, they're all in LA. There's not a whole lot I can do from here.
I get it but I just don't get it. I understand her stress. In fact, I've let her call me and just vent any time she feels the need to. Because it felt like one of the few things that I could do to "help."
She actually said to me (today when she was going off on me) "You're the one that fuckin' wanted him to move from Hawaii to Louisiana in the first place, you BEGGED me to get him to move down here!!!"
WTF?? First of all, I didn't beg her to do a fuckin' thing. I most certainly did not beg her to talk my Father into moving down there. And even if I did, so what?
Seriously, I could go into the whole drawn out (3 fucking phone call) argument, but it doesn't even matter. It just pisses me off. I'm so used to her throwing it up in my face that I never do anything to help her that when she was having trouble helping Daddy pay his electricity bill, I asked Don if we could send the money to pay the bill. We paid the entire bill, not just her half. Don didn't even think twice, he just wrote the check. When she called me depressed because she had a date and didn't have any nice clothes to wear I went through my clothes and sent her two HUGE boxes of clothes (jeans, shirts, shorts, dresses, pj's, shoes and even a gallon ziplock bag full of make up) that cost us almost $60 to send. I'm so over it.
I've got a ticket to go home in September for two weeks. I could kick my ass for the two weeks. I mean, my Son is going to be working a good portion of the time that I'll be there so I was planning on spending some major time with my Sisters. But I don't even want to talk to my oldest sister at this point.
The anxiety is back FULL FORCE. My chest feels like there's an elephant sitting on it. I just don't know how to handle her anymore. I don't know what she expects from me anymore.
There's so much more going on with me, some things I'm trying to sort through that I'm not comfortable "talking" about here. So that's just more shit that I've got to hold in.
Family...who said you always have to love them?
Meet Me On Monday and a couple of pics.
June 21, 2010
I'm having a flare up (Fibromyalgia) today. I'm sore, I'm in pain. I'm one cranky bitch. Just sayin'. If you'd like to know more about Meet Me On Monday you can go here.
Questions:
1. How many brother and sisters do you have?
Two sisters living. My youngest sister passed away when she was 13. I'm (now) the youngest.
2. What is your favorite thing to do?
I'm a creative person so anything that is crafty or computer related.
3. What countries have you visited?
I lived in Europe when my parents split, other than that I haven't.
4. Are you a morning or a night person?
Total night person!
5. What's your favorite cereal?
Captn' Crunch!!!
Seriously, is it the end of the month yet? I can't wait for my hair appointment. Do you see those roots (as if I need to point them out eh?)
I've now lost 23lbs. I bought those jeans (that I'm wearing in the pics) about 3 months ago and I can put them on without unbuttoning them! It never fails, every time I give my "skinny" clothes away, I lose weight. I do not own one pair of shorts that doesn't make me look like I'm walking around with a "load" in the ass of them!
Yeah...I warned you, I'm in a foul mood lol!
To my husband
June 20, 2010
(Lol! Don's favorite "fathers" quote!)
First of all, I'd like to wish all of you a happy Daddy's day. Yes Daddy's, not fathers. You've heard it a mllion times before "Anyone can be a father but it takes someone special to be a Daddy!" I'm sure you also know how true it is.
There are a couple of reason's that I wish that I could be back home for this Daddy's day. The first, my Dad. His health is not so good right now. He's having surgery sometime in the next couple of weeks and I really wish that I could be there with him to celebrate this Daddy's day.
The second reason is to be with my Son. I talked to him last night. This will be the first Daddy's day that he will be visiting his Dad's grave. I'm so proud of Rusty. When I first found out that his Dad committed suicide I was so worried about him, I was so scared that this would be something that he'd never get over. Something that he would struggle with for the rest of his life. Though he does have trouble understanding why, and dealing with the effects of his Dad's suicide he is adjusting and moving on with his life. But, I know that it's not going to be an easy trip for him. He's be to the cemetery a couple of times in the (almost) year that it's been since his suicide. It's never an easy trip for him. I just wish I could be there to go with him.
Now, onto my main reason for writing this entry. My husband. I swear to you, I don't think I've ever met a man more devoted to his kids. It's one of the things that made me fall in love with him. The love that he has for his daughters is unlike anything I've ever experienced with my Dad. And it shows. You can see it in his daughters faces every they're around him.
Have you ever seen those little girls who look at their Daddy's with that look of "awe" on their faces? That's how Don's girls look at him. It's the sweetest thing I've ever seen. Sometimes I envy them, I wish I had a relationship like that with my Dad.
Don has always been there for them. Always! And I know that he always will be. Even though they both live over an hour away from us all they have to do is call and say "Daddy, I need your help!" And he's on his way. He will drop what ever he's in the middle of to go help them. How great is that?
He shows them love every chance he gets. He has patience with them even when one of them (lol I've only seen this happen once so I can only speak from that time) makes the vein in his forehead pop out! He might not like the things that they're doing in their lives at certain times, or he may not like the choices that they may make sometimes but no matter how mad he gets at them, or if he gets disappointed in them...he's STILL there for them.
They're very lucky girls to have this kind of a relationship with their Dad. They treasure it too. There isn't anything those girls wouldn't do for their dad! Anything! They love their Dad, there's no denying that!
Babe, I love you and one of the reasons that I have so much love and respect for you is because of your relationship with your girls. You're a wonderful father!!
(My favorite "father's" quote!)
I love you!
You know I can't wai!!
June 17, 2010
Tomorrow afternoon I have a dr's appointment. The last time I went to see her were discussed how bad my anxiety is getting. Sooooo....somewhere in that conversation she decided that she wants to do a lung function test on me (huh??).
So tomorrow I get to go suck on some balls, or blow on some balls...in one of those clear plastic things that they make you use, get yer mind out of the gutter peeps. ;0}
Once I get home from my appointment I'll come home andbitch tell you all about my excited day at the dr I don't know what in the hell I'm doing office! I know! I know! You're all just sitting on the edge of your chairs waiting to hear!
TGIF babes!!
So tomorrow I get to go suck on some balls, or blow on some balls...in one of those clear plastic things that they make you use, get yer mind out of the gutter peeps. ;0}
Once I get home from my appointment I'll come home and
TGIF babes!!
New look and awards!
So....do you love it? The new look I mean! This layout
Aren't they gorgeous? I just love the color combinations so much that I decided to design a layout with the same colors! I'd love to hear what y'all think about it!
I know...I change my layout as much as I do my drawers (actually, I don't wear 'em!), I can't help it! I like to change the look up from time to time!
If you read my blog post from yesterday then you know that I've been worried about my Dad because of his health issues and I'm bummed because I can't be there to help.
Today one of my readers was so sweet, she cheered me right up. She gave me an award!! Small Town Girl (Honey, I'm so sorry but for the life of me I can't remember you name!! I'm terrible!!) at How much longer till Friday Gave it to me.
1. I can
2. I've almost mastered my new car stereo. Though I do sometimes mess up the speakers (the balance and stuff like that) from time to time. Hubby's a doll and he fixes it for me everytime!
3. House plants. There are very few house plants that I can't keep alive. Notice I said HOUSE plants though. The plants outside...they're all Don's. I'm terrible at those!!
4. Washer necklaces. I'm getting pretty damn good at them, if I may say so!! Here's a few (there are LOTS more) that I've done so far!
This is just a close up shot of some of them.
Here's the whole batch that I made that day. I still have a BUNCH that I need to finish up.
5. Doing almost nothing with my hair and making it look like I did. Lol...I need to get a cut and get my high lights done so bad that it's not even funny! I'm going at the end of the month to get it done though! I hate that it takes so long to get an appointment with her though!
Now I'm supposed to pass this award on to five other people. I've decided to give them to the top 5 people who have been commenting on my blog lately!
1. Yankee Girl
2. Mimi at Living in France
3. Angel at Angel Believes
4. Marguerite at Cajun Delights
5. Betty Jane at Keeper of the Skies Wife
I thank you all for your support, it really means a lot to me that you come by and comment on every single entry!! You all ROCK!!
I feel terrible!
June 16, 2010
I mentioned in a previous post that my Dad's internal defibrillator had stopped working right and that the dr's turned it off until they could decide what to do with it. He had an appointment yesterday and will be having surgery sometime in the next couple of weeks. They THINK that one of the leads came off of it, or that the screw holding the lead onto the actual defibrillator came out (where the hell did it go if it came out??).
Because he's had the defibrillator for over six months (apparently) scar tissue has formed around the leads on it. So he'll have to have two separate surgeries at the same time. The first surgeon will go in with a laser to remove the scar tissue. Then the second surgeon will go in and replace the lead (if that's what's wrong with it. If not, I'm guessing that they'll replace the whole thing).
He's not doing well. Dad was involved in a hit and run accident on his motorcycle years ago (I was about 16 when it happened). His hip was badly damaged, he's had at least 4 hip replacement surgeries since then. He's supposed to wear one of those built up shoes because one of his legs is much shorter than the other (due to the hip injury), but he's never really worn one. He's always just walked with a cane (and a major limp).
He's having a lot of trouble getting around now. My sister told me today that he's fallen on the steps going into his house twice in the last couple of months. He's hurt his ribs both times.
She's really worried about him. He's weak, he's tired, his color doesn't look good. She said that he's having so much trouble getting around that he'll probably end up in a wheelchair before long. I'm sure a lot of this has to do with the fact that the defibrillator isn't working right but it still worries me. My Dad isn't getting younger. I'm so scared that something is going to happen to him before I get to go home in September.
Today when Don gets home he's going to start looking into the VA, Tricare (Dads military insurance), and the VFW (Dad's a member) to see what kind of assistance my Sister can get. She's having to take major time off of work bring Dad to all of his appointments and surgeries. We've also got to look into what kind of help they can get so they can get Daddy's house handicap accessible. I'm really hoping that Don will be able to find something through one of them that will give my sister some kind of help.
I'm worried y'all. I feel terrible that I can't be there to help my sister more. I feel terrible that I can't be there to help my Dad more. I feel terrible that I can't be there to spend some time with Daddy. Basically, I feel terrible.
I'm worried about my Daddy!
Because he's had the defibrillator for over six months (apparently) scar tissue has formed around the leads on it. So he'll have to have two separate surgeries at the same time. The first surgeon will go in with a laser to remove the scar tissue. Then the second surgeon will go in and replace the lead (if that's what's wrong with it. If not, I'm guessing that they'll replace the whole thing).
He's not doing well. Dad was involved in a hit and run accident on his motorcycle years ago (I was about 16 when it happened). His hip was badly damaged, he's had at least 4 hip replacement surgeries since then. He's supposed to wear one of those built up shoes because one of his legs is much shorter than the other (due to the hip injury), but he's never really worn one. He's always just walked with a cane (and a major limp).
He's having a lot of trouble getting around now. My sister told me today that he's fallen on the steps going into his house twice in the last couple of months. He's hurt his ribs both times.
She's really worried about him. He's weak, he's tired, his color doesn't look good. She said that he's having so much trouble getting around that he'll probably end up in a wheelchair before long. I'm sure a lot of this has to do with the fact that the defibrillator isn't working right but it still worries me. My Dad isn't getting younger. I'm so scared that something is going to happen to him before I get to go home in September.
Today when Don gets home he's going to start looking into the VA, Tricare (Dads military insurance), and the VFW (Dad's a member) to see what kind of assistance my Sister can get. She's having to take major time off of work bring Dad to all of his appointments and surgeries. We've also got to look into what kind of help they can get so they can get Daddy's house handicap accessible. I'm really hoping that Don will be able to find something through one of them that will give my sister some kind of help.
I'm worried y'all. I feel terrible that I can't be there to help my sister more. I feel terrible that I can't be there to help my Dad more. I feel terrible that I can't be there to spend some time with Daddy. Basically, I feel terrible.
I'm worried about my Daddy!
I'm looking out of the window......
June 14, 2010
Well, it's happened again. I've lost my mojo damn it. I don't know why either.
I'll be back when I find it again!
Hope you're all well!
Shook (or shocked) Me All Night Long
June 10, 2010
My Dad is 70 years old. It's hard to believe he's that old lol. Though sometimes it's not...I swear the man is senile sometimes lol, I see it more and more with each visit I make home. He loses things that are in his hands. He's swear and be damned that he had a conversation with you that NEVER took place. It's actually very funny sometimes.
On my last visit home I went to his house and was standing on his porch waiting for him to unlock the door when I saw a snake on the porch. I'm terrified of snakes, terrified. So I'm yelling at him through the door to hurry up and unlock the damn thing lol. He opened the door and I said "Daddy, there's a snake on your porch!" to which he replied "It's your Mother!" (so not funny to me damn it!) then he looked at me, hugged me and said "Boy, you sure have put on the weight haven't you?"
Relax y'all, I didn't kill him. Though...the bruises did take a while to go away! Haha...
My Dad has been in congestive heart failure for the last 10 or so years. He's had so many (small to medium) strokes that I've lost count. He's had three or four heart attacks. Last year he had an internal defibrillator installed. I'll never forget the conversation he and I had after he had that surgery.
I asked him how he was feeling and if he though the defibrillator was helping him any. He said, "I feel great, it has shocked me a couple of times since they put it in, it doesn't hurt but man...THE NOISE!! It's so damn loud when it shocks me, I'm worried it's going to wake your sister up!" (she lives with him, bless her!!) So I hear my sister in the background say "Daddy! I've already told you, only YOU can hear that noise! That thing is shocking the shit out of you and making you see stars!!!" It was a hilarious conversation...maybe you had to be there!
His defibrillator has stopped working properly. Did you know there's a recall on some of those damn things? My sister took him to the dr yesterday, they seem to think that maybe one of the wires on his has somehow become unattached. The took some x rays, ran some kind of test. They're supposed to call her today to let her know what they've decided is wrong with the damn thing and what they're going to have to do to fix it.
But they had to turn the defibrillator off until they figure out what is going on with it. So he's "unprotected" until they do. Scary as hell if you think about it. I'm just waiting to hear from my sister today.
Hubby decided that he wanted a Playstation 3 for Father's Day so we ordered him one last week. It came in this morning. I'll be a Playstation/Resident Evil widow for the rest of the week that he's off lol. He loves Resident Evil (the game...not me when I wake up in the morning, though...he does love me then too!) and can spend HOURS playing!! I don't mind though!
Hope you all have a wonderful day today!
On my last visit home I went to his house and was standing on his porch waiting for him to unlock the door when I saw a snake on the porch. I'm terrified of snakes, terrified. So I'm yelling at him through the door to hurry up and unlock the damn thing lol. He opened the door and I said "Daddy, there's a snake on your porch!" to which he replied "It's your Mother!" (so not funny to me damn it!) then he looked at me, hugged me and said "Boy, you sure have put on the weight haven't you?"
Relax y'all, I didn't kill him. Though...the bruises did take a while to go away! Haha...
My Dad has been in congestive heart failure for the last 10 or so years. He's had so many (small to medium) strokes that I've lost count. He's had three or four heart attacks. Last year he had an internal defibrillator installed. I'll never forget the conversation he and I had after he had that surgery.
I asked him how he was feeling and if he though the defibrillator was helping him any. He said, "I feel great, it has shocked me a couple of times since they put it in, it doesn't hurt but man...THE NOISE!! It's so damn loud when it shocks me, I'm worried it's going to wake your sister up!" (she lives with him, bless her!!) So I hear my sister in the background say "Daddy! I've already told you, only YOU can hear that noise! That thing is shocking the shit out of you and making you see stars!!!" It was a hilarious conversation...maybe you had to be there!
His defibrillator has stopped working properly. Did you know there's a recall on some of those damn things? My sister took him to the dr yesterday, they seem to think that maybe one of the wires on his has somehow become unattached. The took some x rays, ran some kind of test. They're supposed to call her today to let her know what they've decided is wrong with the damn thing and what they're going to have to do to fix it.
But they had to turn the defibrillator off until they figure out what is going on with it. So he's "unprotected" until they do. Scary as hell if you think about it. I'm just waiting to hear from my sister today.
Hubby decided that he wanted a Playstation 3 for Father's Day so we ordered him one last week. It came in this morning. I'll be a Playstation/Resident Evil widow for the rest of the week that he's off lol. He loves Resident Evil (the game...not me when I wake up in the morning, though...he does love me then too!) and can spend HOURS playing!! I don't mind though!
Hope you all have a wonderful day today!
The Nerve....
June 9, 2010
Another night of no sleep for me yay! Lol...not really. I meant it's not really a "yay" situation! But I did have a blog layout that I was dying to finish and thankfully, I did. I've think I've decided that it's the last free layout that I'm going to do though (unless it's family or a close friend)!
I don't think people realize exactly how much time goes into making the graphics for a layout. And then you've got to write up the code.
I'm a perfectionist. Always have been. So I will work on something to the point of driving myself crazy just to make sure I've got it right. It's just taking up entirely too much of my time.
I'm in the process of cleaning up my laptop. I've got so much crap on here that it's starting to move slow. So I'm going through ALL (seriously...hundreds of them!!!) of the scrap kits that I have on here and deleting the ones I don't like.
It's looking like rain today so Don and I are gonna chill out at home!
Hope you all have a great day. More later....possibly.
I don't think people realize exactly how much time goes into making the graphics for a layout. And then you've got to write up the code.
I'm a perfectionist. Always have been. So I will work on something to the point of driving myself crazy just to make sure I've got it right. It's just taking up entirely too much of my time.
I'm in the process of cleaning up my laptop. I've got so much crap on here that it's starting to move slow. So I'm going through ALL (seriously...hundreds of them!!!) of the scrap kits that I have on here and deleting the ones I don't like.
It's looking like rain today so Don and I are gonna chill out at home!
Hope you all have a great day. More later....possibly.
I Fixed That Sh*t Yo!
June 7, 2010
Yup! I FINALLY figured out how I eff' up my blog feed what was wrong with my blog feed and fixed it! Yay for me, thank Godness I'm a nerd I'm computer/blogger savy!
I feel bad y'all! Hubby and I were supposed to go to the boat races this weekend. I had ahorrible flare up all.weekend.long. The muscle spasms were AWFUL.
(totally not me, I'm much hotter! What? Oh...shut up!)
Anyohhellthathurts, hubby ended up spending the entire weekend stuck in the house with me. He said he didn't mind, and I KNOW he didn't. I also know he was looking forward to the boat races! Makes me feel bad damn it!
I've found a new Cajun friend here on blogger who lives 30 minutes (if that) from my hometown. She has some AMAZING Cajun recipes in her blog!! Today she has a recipe for grilled catfish and shrimp that looks yummy as hell (even though I can't stand seafood lol)! Go check out her blog, read the recipes....I'm sure you'll find one you'll like!
Don't forget y'all, if you haven't signed the BP petition yet, please...go click that button over there (to the right, the big blue one) and sign it! Do it for the poor animals that are covered in oil, fighting to survive! It doesn't take long at all! All you have to do is put in your name, your email addy and your zip code!! That's it!
Also, Dawn dish soap has a program called "Saving Wildlife" and every time you buy a bottle of Dawn they donate one dollar to helping save wildlife (from oil spills and other catastrophes). So, if you've got to pick up some detergent...buy some Dawn!
Have a great day y'all!
I feel bad y'all! Hubby and I were supposed to go to the boat races this weekend. I had a
Anyohhellthathurts, hubby ended up spending the entire weekend stuck in the house with me. He said he didn't mind, and I KNOW he didn't. I also know he was looking forward to the boat races! Makes me feel bad damn it!
I've found a new Cajun friend here on blogger who lives 30 minutes (if that) from my hometown. She has some AMAZING Cajun recipes in her blog!! Today she has a recipe for grilled catfish and shrimp that looks yummy as hell (even though I can't stand seafood lol)! Go check out her blog, read the recipes....I'm sure you'll find one you'll like!
Don't forget y'all, if you haven't signed the BP petition yet, please...go click that button over there (to the right, the big blue one) and sign it! Do it for the poor animals that are covered in oil, fighting to survive! It doesn't take long at all! All you have to do is put in your name, your email addy and your zip code!! That's it!
Also, Dawn dish soap has a program called "Saving Wildlife" and every time you buy a bottle of Dawn they donate one dollar to helping save wildlife (from oil spills and other catastrophes). So, if you've got to pick up some detergent...buy some Dawn!
Have a great day y'all!
Ha! I don't know if the blogging world is ready for this!
June 5, 2010
Kidding! Just a quick entry...I'm having a flare up today so no boat races for us! Hopefully I'll be feeling better tomorrow and we can go to them then! It's really a lot of fun watching them!
So do you see the two new buttons over there to the right?
The new blog button is the link to my hubby's new blog! Yup! I'm not sure if the world is ready for that haha!!
The other is a link to sign a petition against BP. Please, PLEASE...take the time to go sign it It doesn't take long at all! All you have to do is put in your name and email addy and zip code! That's it! And hell, you can post the link on your blog if you're really feeling generous!!
Hope you all have a great weekend!
So do you see the two new buttons over there to the right?
The new blog button is the link to my hubby's new blog! Yup! I'm not sure if the world is ready for that haha!!
The other is a link to sign a petition against BP. Please, PLEASE...take the time to go sign it It doesn't take long at all! All you have to do is put in your name and email addy and zip code! That's it! And hell, you can post the link on your blog if you're really feeling generous!!
Hope you all have a great weekend!
Bonzai's and Friday Follow 40 and Over!
June 4, 2010
Just found out yesterday that hubby has another week off! Lol...he knew that his new class started on the 7th so that's when he thought he had to go back. His new class does start on the 7th but they have to take a 5 day class on "professional development" before they get to his class. So yeah...he's home for another week!
He doesn't know what to do with himself lol. He's cleaned out the garage, cut the grass (twice I think), washed and waxed my car (which looks AMAZING btw!! Thank you my love!) and worked on those juniper trees that I mentioned in another entry. He bought 12 of them from a friend who works at a nursery. When he started cleaning them up (to bonsai them) he realized that there were two in each pot, one pot had three trees in it.
So he sat down one day and all he did was clean them up and bonsai them! He LOVES doing this, can't say that I blame him! It's one of the most relaxing things I've ever done! Anybonzai, I thought I'd share a few pics of them!
He started with 12 of these!
I can't wait until they're ready to be put into bonzai pots! They're gonna be gorgeous!
This is another before shot!
This is the after shot of the above pic! I'm in love with this one! It's gonna be gorgeous in a bonzai pot!!!
I should take a coke can out there and take some pics so you could see how small this one is!
This is a boxwood that he's been working on for a couple of years!
These are just some of the trees he's done! The one on the bottom left is one of the first ones that I ever did. It's the only one of mine that lived lol! I named him (yes! I named him!!) Mr Miyagi lol! Don cleaned it up (cut it back) when he worked on all of these!
These are all of the new ones once he was finished with them!
The man has talent! Would you believe that this hobby started out from a book report he did in the 9th grade? Yup! He did a book report on bonzai's and he's been doing them since then! I wish I was this good at them! He says that I get too "scissor happy" with them lol. But I say that it's all subjective! Haha...he told me when he first started teaching me that it's all about what you (I, Me) see in the tree. I guess I see naked trees haha.
I've actually been designing a couple of blog layouts. That's what I've been up to! I've got one that I'm almost finished with that I have to "install" today as soon as I hear back from her! Once that's done I think I'm gonna take a break from that a bit, though I am "itching" to redo mine again lol!
Hope you're all doing well! I'm still reading blogs though I haven't commented on many (sorry guys)! I've tried to cut my "online" time while hubby's home. So...I'll be MIA for another week while he's off.
This weekend we're going to the Carolina Cup Regatta to watch the (hydroplane) powerboat races. And since we haven't gone to the beach (like we were supposed to last week) we're gonna do that next week sometime. We decided not to go last week since it was the week of Memorial day...the traffic was crazy!!
I just joined a new group here on blogger! Check it out, see if it's something you may enjoy!
Hope you're all doing well...know that I miss ya!
Another WTH for ya!
June 2, 2010
I know I haven't been around all that much, I've really been trying to enjoy as much time with hubby as I can while he's had this time off.
I haven't been sleeping good lately, I know...what's new? In the last four days I've had one good nights sleep. Another one of those nights I got about 3 hours sleep and the other two nights I was up all night! So now I'm trying to play catch up!
I've been designing a few blogs too. Nothing I'm getting paid for (yet) but hopefully soon I can start up a little side business doing that!
Brief Jerky's
Beef Jerky underwear. And y'all...be still my beating heart...they're bedazzled!! I bet they taste better than those nasty fruit roll up underwear though! Not that I've tasted those or anything...just sayin'!
Yes ladies, this baby absorbs "man gas!" Lol the website says that they contain the same type of fabric used by the military to protect against chemical weapons!
The Boyfriend Body Pillow
I wont even go into the product description on the web for this one. I thought I'd list the "benefits and features" instead.
* Perfect sleeping companion for lonely people
* Feel the embrace of a real (really??) man without the snoring, smell, tossing or turning
Those were the only two that mattered to me, because they're redonkulous!
The Butt Bra
What the hell is wrong with people? Seriously, if your ass is sagging enough to need a butt bra, it's too damn late...get over it!
Chuck Norris Toilet Paper
Of course it's not real, but it's funny.
While we're on the subject of TP, how about some glow in the dark TP?? You know...it's for when you don't feel like turning on the light...you'll be able to "see" your way through it!
The Ladybag
A disposable urinal for women. It's fitted with absorbent polymers that turn urine into a gel that can absorb half a liter of pee but the bag itself can hold up to a full liter. It's "recommended" for one-time use (duhh).
The P-Mate
"The portable, disposable divice that allows women to pee standing up wherever and whenever they need to, without losing their dignigty." Peeing in a paper cup will REALLY help me keep my dignity!!
Loved To Death Jewelry
Lmao...according to their website "All animal parts in our jewelry and accessories line come from recycled (Ya think??) sources and have all been professionally preserved.No animal has EVER been killed for use in our work. They are Loved To Death by us and hopefully you too!"
Designer Beaver
This might have been funny back in the 70's but how much fun can you have "drawing" a landing strip?
Shit Happens Designer Dog Poo Bags
Because you can never be too stylish! Even when picking up shit! They actually turn into a box...a designer box.
Dog Condoms Canine Birth Control
I'm NOT even going to ask who's supposed to put the damn thing on, or how you'd going about doing that. Ewww. Lmao...on the website they have some Q&A's on their front page. Here's a sample of them...
What Sizes and Scents Do They Come In?
Dog condoms come in three sizes to fit small, medium, and large breeds. Almost every dog will find a comfortable, well-proportioned condom to meet their needs. The condoms also come in lubricated and meat scented varieties to enhance pleasure for both dog partners.
Can I Train My Dog To Put It On Himself?
No, the dog will require human intervention each time he wishes to put on or take off a condom.
What About Female Condoms for Bitches?
We recognize that birth control is the responsibility of both partners, and we are currently working on a prototype of a condom for female dogs. However, we don't expect it to reach the market until 2007.
What About Loss of Sensation?
Just like with human condoms, the dog may experience a slight loss of sensation. However, the condoms are made of a very thin latex which should transmit heat well, a key factor in creating a lifelike feel. We are also experimenting with new scents, which work like a "doggy Viagra", providing further sensory stimulation.
(There's something seriously wrong with these people!!)
Want to hear the hilarious part? There's a product recall on them. The reason? According to the website:
FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE -- Bloomington, IN – August 3, 2006 -- Dog Condoms, Inc.
is announcing a voluntary recall of its Dog Condoms® canine prophylactics, due
to an unacceptable failure rate reported during preliminary release in test
markets. Use of these recalled condoms may result in unwanted canine pregnancies.
Additionally, meat-scented Dog Condoms® may present a choking hazard, especially
for smaller dogs.
Meat scented? Are you effin' kidding me? And no one thought they'd be a choking hazard when you were coming up with this crap?
Ed Hardy Hand Sanitizer
So when you're "fist pumpin'" you'll have the cleanest hands around!
Poo-Pourri
"Spritz the bowl before you go...and no one else will ever know!" Hmmm...ok!
The SenSlip
Artificial foreskin for circumcised men. It "helps restore the sensitivity to the penis of circumcised men. It protects the head of the penis against dryness and chafing caused by constant exposure to clothing." (Don't you think wearing a fake penis thingy would cause "chafing?)
Sonic Boom Alarm Clock
Wake up to any combo of loud pulsating audio alarm, flashing lights, and shaking bed (bed vibrator sold separately). I could totally use one of these lol!
Stud Undies
For that special guy *wink wink*
Security Briefs
Underwear safe...it would totally work with me...I wouldn't touch the damn things!
Weener Kleener Soap
Because regular soap just wont work!!
Weenie Babies
They have a whole collection you can choose from. Of course I had to to pick the "Masturgator!" Because I'm from Louisiana you fools, not because...oh never mind!
Well, that's my latest installment of "WTH?" I hope you've all enjoyed it! I swear, just when I think I can't find anything else to make me say "What the hell? Who the hell?" then I do!
Hope you're all doing well!
I haven't been sleeping good lately, I know...what's new? In the last four days I've had one good nights sleep. Another one of those nights I got about 3 hours sleep and the other two nights I was up all night! So now I'm trying to play catch up!
I've been designing a few blogs too. Nothing I'm getting paid for (yet) but hopefully soon I can start up a little side business doing that!
Brief Jerky's
Beef Jerky underwear. And y'all...be still my beating heart...they're bedazzled!! I bet they taste better than those nasty fruit roll up underwear though! Not that I've tasted those or anything...just sayin'!
Yes ladies, this baby absorbs "man gas!" Lol the website says that they contain the same type of fabric used by the military to protect against chemical weapons!
The Boyfriend Body Pillow
I wont even go into the product description on the web for this one. I thought I'd list the "benefits and features" instead.
* Perfect sleeping companion for lonely people
* Feel the embrace of a real (really??) man without the snoring, smell, tossing or turning
Those were the only two that mattered to me, because they're redonkulous!
The Butt Bra
What the hell is wrong with people? Seriously, if your ass is sagging enough to need a butt bra, it's too damn late...get over it!
Chuck Norris Toilet Paper
Of course it's not real, but it's funny.
While we're on the subject of TP, how about some glow in the dark TP?? You know...it's for when you don't feel like turning on the light...you'll be able to "see" your way through it!
The Ladybag
A disposable urinal for women. It's fitted with absorbent polymers that turn urine into a gel that can absorb half a liter of pee but the bag itself can hold up to a full liter. It's "recommended" for one-time use (duhh).
The P-Mate
"The portable, disposable divice that allows women to pee standing up wherever and whenever they need to, without losing their dignigty." Peeing in a paper cup will REALLY help me keep my dignity!!
Loved To Death Jewelry
Lmao...according to their website "All animal parts in our jewelry and accessories line come from recycled (Ya think??) sources and have all been professionally preserved.No animal has EVER been killed for use in our work. They are Loved To Death by us and hopefully you too!"
Designer Beaver
This might have been funny back in the 70's but how much fun can you have "drawing" a landing strip?
Shit Happens Designer Dog Poo Bags
Because you can never be too stylish! Even when picking up shit! They actually turn into a box...a designer box.
I'm NOT even going to ask who's supposed to put the damn thing on, or how you'd going about doing that. Ewww. Lmao...on the website they have some Q&A's on their front page. Here's a sample of them...
What Sizes and Scents Do They Come In?
Dog condoms come in three sizes to fit small, medium, and large breeds. Almost every dog will find a comfortable, well-proportioned condom to meet their needs. The condoms also come in lubricated and meat scented varieties to enhance pleasure for both dog partners.
Can I Train My Dog To Put It On Himself?
No, the dog will require human intervention each time he wishes to put on or take off a condom.
What About Female Condoms for Bitches?
We recognize that birth control is the responsibility of both partners, and we are currently working on a prototype of a condom for female dogs. However, we don't expect it to reach the market until 2007.
What About Loss of Sensation?
Just like with human condoms, the dog may experience a slight loss of sensation. However, the condoms are made of a very thin latex which should transmit heat well, a key factor in creating a lifelike feel. We are also experimenting with new scents, which work like a "doggy Viagra", providing further sensory stimulation.
(There's something seriously wrong with these people!!)
Want to hear the hilarious part? There's a product recall on them. The reason? According to the website:
FOR IMMEDIATE RELEASE -- Bloomington, IN – August 3, 2006 -- Dog Condoms, Inc.
is announcing a voluntary recall of its Dog Condoms® canine prophylactics, due
to an unacceptable failure rate reported during preliminary release in test
markets. Use of these recalled condoms may result in unwanted canine pregnancies.
Additionally, meat-scented Dog Condoms® may present a choking hazard, especially
for smaller dogs.
Meat scented? Are you effin' kidding me? And no one thought they'd be a choking hazard when you were coming up with this crap?
Ed Hardy Hand Sanitizer
So when you're "fist pumpin'" you'll have the cleanest hands around!
Poo-Pourri
"Spritz the bowl before you go...and no one else will ever know!" Hmmm...ok!
The SenSlip
Artificial foreskin for circumcised men. It "helps restore the sensitivity to the penis of circumcised men. It protects the head of the penis against dryness and chafing caused by constant exposure to clothing." (Don't you think wearing a fake penis thingy would cause "chafing?)
Sonic Boom Alarm Clock
Wake up to any combo of loud pulsating audio alarm, flashing lights, and shaking bed (bed vibrator sold separately). I could totally use one of these lol!
Stud Undies
For that special guy *wink wink*
Security Briefs
Underwear safe...it would totally work with me...I wouldn't touch the damn things!
Weener Kleener Soap
Because regular soap just wont work!!
Weenie Babies
They have a whole collection you can choose from. Of course I had to to pick the "Masturgator!" Because I'm from Louisiana you fools, not because...oh never mind!
Well, that's my latest installment of "WTH?" I hope you've all enjoyed it! I swear, just when I think I can't find anything else to make me say "What the hell? Who the hell?" then I do!
Hope you're all doing well!
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