It's been a few days since my last post so I thought I should take the time and update this damn thing! Things with my oldest sister have gone from bad to worse! It's gotten so bad that I honestly thought I was going to have to block her on Facebook!
After the first phone call between us that I told y'all about I'd had enough. Like I said in my last entry, she can call me and vent anytime but when she calls me just to attack me...I'm not having it! I've never really stood up to her before, usually I just take it and then cry for hours afterwards but I'm not a kid and I deserve just as much respect as her.
Well Thursday she kept sending me messages on Facebook, I stopped replying to them because it just wasn't getting us anywhere and it was making my anxiety go through the roof. I'd been up for 3 days (YES! 3 effin' days!!) with maybe two hours of sleep (because of all of this).
So when my phone rang and I saw that it was her, I lost it. I answered my phone and said (OK! More like yelled) everything that was on my mind. Then I hung up. She called back, to ask me if I hung up on her. So, I went off again. I told her "I effin' hung up on you!" and I hung up again!
I don't know how to deal with irrationality! I just don't! Nothing I say to her is going to make her feel better. Nothing I say to her is going to make this go away so why even bother??
I haven't heard from her since except a text message to let me know that Dad's surgery is scheduled for Wednesday morning and that they've also found something wrong with Daddy's kidneys. They're still going to go through with the surgery and figure out the kidneys later. But they're not functioning right.
In between all of the messages on Facebook and the phone calls I'd called my other sister (the middle one) crying over all of this. I called my Dad and told him that I love him, but I don't want her calling me after his surgery. Not if she's going to be this irrational! He totally understood. Its sad that I have to worry him over this, just to get her to leave me alone.
I don't know what's going to happen when I go home in September but honestly, I'm not looking forward to it. She's not one of those people who lets go of things. She'll hold onto this forever. She'll hold onto this grudge she's got going on until I'm blue in the face! And there's nothing I can do to change it.
I swear, I've always joked that my family put the funk in dysfunctional but it's starting to get ridiculous!
Y'all, please keep my Daddy in your prayers!! Thanks for listening again!