My New Pet Project

Last week I somehow stumble upon a a really great "blog project" that I immediately knew I wanted to participate in. Especially since I've been having a bit of "blog fog" recently. I just love the idea.

So exactly what am I talking about? Project: Love, Me : A Year of Discovering YOU! Here's how they describe it, Project: Love, Me is an exciting & touching project 52 with weekly prompts designed to help you share your personal journey … 52 messages & stories from you to future generations … a collection for your loved ones … signed, “Love, Me.”

Project: Love, Me is much more than an “All About Me” album. It is about you, of course — but not a laundry list of facts or answers to simple questions, or even a chronological history. It’s an adventure of self-discovery as we focus on specific themes and delve deep with prompts to help you get to the heart of who you are and share that with others.

Y'all know me, I had to make a cutesy tag to go along with each of my post. Lol...wouldn't be me if I didn't! How purdy is it??

And away we go! From the Project: Love, Me blog... (in bold)

{Project: Love, Me} “Pre”-prompt


Welcome to our very first prompt for Project: Love, Me … not Prompt #1, which we’ll post next week when the project officially kicks off — but a “prelude” prompt if you will. Something to get you started thinking about this project and why YOU are participating in it.

So why are you completing the project? Is it for you, or for someone else, or both? What do you hope to gain from the project at the end of the 52 weeks? Do you think it will make a difference in your life? How?

You don’t have to answer every single question I just posted above. They’re just prompts to get you thinking.

I think at first the idea appealed to me because I'm in a (sort of) blogging "funk" or rut. But I think that it would be neat for my Son, Sisters, my family to read this someday. I also think that it just may be a bit therapeutic for me to search within myself to answer the prompts.

I hope that by the end of the 52 weeks I'll have a whole new understanding of who I am, what I want and where I want to be. I do think that it will make a difference in my life because as I said, I'm hoping that I'll finish this with a whole new understanding of who I am.

Well, that wasn't so bad. I have a bit of catching up to do so I'll probably post more than once a month until I'm caught up. If you'd like to "play along" you can go to their blog. If you do participate, be sure to link (in a comment on that weeks prompt) in the comments. I hope to see y'all there! 

Love, Me

Life Sometimes Gets In The Way...

I don't know about y'all but blogging is an escape for me. It's a place to purge all of the thoughts bouncing around in my ADHD head. It's a place for me to vent, to brag, to bost, to hope, to dream. I don't think anyone comes here thinking "I'm coming here to meet some really great people!" Let's face it though, it happens.

We come to blogger for our own reasons, once you get here a remarkable thing happens. You start meeting some really "good" people. When I say good people what I mean is, people who accept you right away, people who lift you up and say to everyone else "hey...this chick (person) right here...SHE'S GOOD PEOPLE TOO!" They're there when your down, they are there to support you.

It's the most amazing thing. It's so amazing to meet that perfect strangers can become your bff's so quickly. A lot of people don't understand it. I know my family doesn't get it, they never have! I'll never forget when I told them about Mr Luvah Luvah (we met online)! They thought I'd lost my damn mind. They just don't get how people that I've never met IRL can come to mean so much to me.

The answer is simple. They're (You're) here for me. You're all here for me when I'm down, when I'm sad, when I'm in pain, when I'm happy. You're all here for it all, you're all here to support me.

I realize I'm starting to babble. I apologize. I know what I want to say, I know what I'm feeling. What I want need to say just isn't coming out right.

I've had the distinct pleasure of being included in a small group of ladies here in blog land who opened up their hearts and said "come on in girl!" I'm talking about my BB girls. They've been more loving, understand, accepting of me than I could ever express to any one who isn't part of the group.

These ladies give new meaning to the words supportive, understanding, caring, and loving. Not to sound bitchy but "you can't touch this" seems to sum them up! It's hard to meet ladies like them.

Juney, B, Cheesy, Stephanie, Queso, Dreamweaver, and Daffy...thank you for being there. Even when I'm not. Even when my damn hands are cramping up on me and I can't text for longer than two minutes without my damn hands going numb. Even when you haven't heard from me in what seems like forever. I'm still with you!

I can pick up my BB and send a text to them...and they're there! They're so damn understanding and loving! The greatest group of bitches you'll ever meet! Wurd! You're all the rockstars of blogger...just sayin'!

I'm rambling again! Sorry. The whole reason for this post? Daffy. Beautiful Daffy. Oh yeah...she's a hottie too but that's not what I'm talking about. This woman is beautiful...on the inside. She's got one of those personalities that just lifts you up. Just knowing that you're a part of her life makes you happy, makes you feel as lucky as you can get.

Daffy lost her sister yesterday. Daffy's hurting. That kills me. Just to know what she's going through. Just to know that someone who's come to mean so much to me in hurting...damn it, it's hard. You want to take the pain away. You want to take her hurt and carry it for her.

But we cant, we can only be there for her. We can only support her. We can only love her.

Daffy, even though  my life sometimes gets in the way of me being "there" as much as I'd like to be it doesn't mean that I don't think about all of you. It doesn't mean that I haven't been saying my prayers for you and your family. It doesn't mean that I don't hurt when you hurt!

I'm so damn sorry for what you're going through! Love you girl! I guess that's all that I was trying to say!

One year ago today (lots of pictures)..........

One year ago today I walked down to the beach, with a crowd of family and friends, and Don of course. One year ago today I married the most amazing man that I've ever met. I married a man who loves me, just as I am. He hasn't once tried to change me. He has showed me that it's ok to love myself, to think about myself and not feel guilty about it. He's given me more than anyone has ever cared to, the things he's given to me are things that can't be purchased. They're things that are priceless to me. I'm more in love with him at this moment than I've ever been before, but I know that when I wake up, I'll love him even more! That is the most amazing feeling ever!!

I honestly never thought that this kind of life was even possible. That this kind of happiness is even possible. How do you repay someone for that? The only way I've been able to figure out to repay him for what he's given me is to love him just as much in return!

On our wedding day we laughed. We laughed because we were happy! It was such a happy day for us! Anyway...on to the pics! These are in no certain order!

Two days before the wedding my Sister Diann, her husband Tomy and I went down to the beach and stayed at a hotel until our beach rental was available. It was so nice to get to spend some time alone with them! We went shopping at Kitty Hawk Kites wich is located right across from Jockey's Ridge which is the tallest natural sand dunes in the eastern U.S.!

Anyway, Tomy wanted to buy some kites for us to fly. First he found these two really cool kites, but then he found THIS...

Cool kite right? Looks like a reagular ol' kite right?? Well...feast your eyes on this baby on the ground...

The damn thing is 19ft wide!! Lol...sucker is HUGE!!! We named it "the big EFFIN' kite!"

Everyone wanted a turn flying this bitch! It's not as easy as it looks lol!

The day of the wedding Tomy decided to get the kite up in the air and then he tied it off to the back deck of our beach house. That damn thing was so strong if you'd touch the line the damn thing was vibrating! When it came time to pull the kite in, it took all these people (in the pics below) about 30 - 40 minutes to get it pulled in! I'm not kidding! Lol..

(This is my favorite wedding picture out of all of them!!)

Our wedding was exactly what we wanted it to be. It was small, it was beautiful! There was no stress involved in our wedding day what so ever!! We couldn't have asked for a better day!!