Happy To Be Stuck With You...

I'm in a bitchy mood today so I'm just gonna post my notes and I'm out of here! If you'd like to play along, you can do so but clicking on that note above.

Meet Me on Monday...My Nerves Are Shot!

Do I have any nerves left? I have no idea! My Dad was supposed to have his surgery this past Friday but his blood was too thin (he's on blood thinners) so they postponed it. I got a text message from my Sister at 9:30 tonight informing me that he's having it today (Monday). So yeah, I can't sleep. I went to bed and read for a little while and then decided to try to get some sleep. I tossed and turned, that's about it!!

If you're a praying person, say a prayer for my Daddy today. I'm worried sick. Only 21 more days until I get to go home  and see him and the rest of my family. I'm so scared that he's not going to hold out that long. That's my biggest fear at this point. It's hard enough to stop and think that this trip home might be the last time I get to see him, that when I say goodbye to him when I come home it could be the last time I say it to him...God this is so hard. There are no words.

If you'd like to join in on Meet Me on Monday you can go here.

1. What is your favorite kind of potato chip?

These are my newest addiction! I don't know who decided to bag and sell the "burnt" chips, but THANK YOU! Damn things are yummy!

2. Do you make your bed everyday?

Not!!!!
3. How often do you go to the hair salon?

 Not often enough but usually every 4-6 months.

4. What do you dip your French fries in?

 Usually just ketchup but I love dipping them in tartar sauce! Yum.

5 Do you shop with coupons?

 Nahh....I cut them out and forget to take them with me, and if I do bring them with me, I forget to use them. I don't even bother anymore lol.

Well Good Lawd....

Whew...it's been a long day! I woke up this morning and cleaned the entire house, yeah that was fun..not! Thanks to having three dogs (Don's daughter has a pug also, and they're now both living with us) in the house, with all the damn shedding they do , it seems like it's a never ending battle with the damn dog hair. It's driving me nuts!

 Seriously, that's what it looks like when I'm finished sweeping up my house, a big huge pile of dog hair. Don't even get me started on what comes out of my vacuum cleaner! Ewww....

After finishing up the house and spending a little time with Mr Gorgeous I ran and picked up dinner for him and I then stopped at the store I used to work at to drop off a gift to a friend who still works there, she's having a hysterectomy next week, so I told her it was her "Happy Hysterectomy" gift lol. She thought that was hilarious! Hell...I don't know about her, but when I found out I was having mine I cried....not because I was scared but because they told me I had to wait two months before they'd do it! Lol...that meant two more visits from "Aunt Flow" damn it!

Yup! That's me, big ol' titty baby! But hell...if you'd know how my visits with that bitch of an "Aunt" went you'd understand! We're talking 7 days, in bed. On as many drugs as I could get my hands on. Anything that would knock my ass out because nothing stopped the pain! I'd pratically sleep through the entire week! I was so ready for that damn surgery! I'm thankful I got it and I've never regretted it either!

So, my birthday is in 4 days! Uugh...getting old sucks. But...my trip to Louisiana (HOME!!) is in 22 days bitches! Now THAT I'm excited about!

I get to see (and hold) my son and listen to him say MOM! Stop! every time I try to smooch on him!

I get to see (and drink with ha) my sisters. I get to see my dingy  loveable bff.

I get to meet Leiah, and quite possibly Kimber!

I get to eat some good ol' Cajun food. And even some good Chinese food! Cause I'll be honest with you, the crap they try to pass off as Chinese food here is just NASTY! Lol...

Any sweethomelouisiana....today my SIL and BIL went to see Kiss. They had backstage passes. The paid $975 EACH (good lawd!!) for those tickets. You see, my BIL loves Gene Simmons! So, he had him sign his arm today and tomorrow they're coming down here so the girl that tattoo's Don and I can tattoo it for him. My SIL is getting a tattoo too, but not a kiss one lol. So I think tomorrow Don and I will probably go down to the tattoo shop and watch them get their ink on! I'm so craving another one! I know what I want...wish I could get it before I go home. Maybe hubs will get me that for my bday?? Hmmm...that would be nice lol!

Y'all know what they say about one bad apple right? Well, smells like there's a few around these parts these days. Tisk, tisk, tisk.... I'm not the boss around here or anything, seems like we have enough of those too, but my advice? Ignore, ignore, ignore.

Sometimes you just have to sit back and laugh. Really you do, and trust me...if you did...things would just roll off your back like it does a ducks...just sayin'!

Wanna smile?? Just watch this video, and picture me driving down the road with this blaring full blast and singing it, word for word! How can that thought not put a smile on your face???

Dr Dre lyrics

Dr Dre Next Episode Video - Dr Dre Music Videos

Music Videos by VideoCure

Lol....hubby hates my music! Yeah...I know the language is bad, but I love, love, love me some SNOOP DOGG!! He just puts me in a good mood!

So, it's almost 3 am, hubs is still playing PS3 and I'm still awake...wide awake! Gonna be a long day I think lol!

Hope you all have a great day!

Friday Follow and over. The best laid plans never seem to work out damn it!

It seems like Leiah, Kimber, Deann and I have had plans for them to come down to meet me when I go to Louisiana. Deann hasn't been sure if she's going to be able to make it, at this point it's not looking good. Kimber isn't sure if she's going to be able to make it either.

Months ago I asked my sister and bro in law that if we could use their guest house to stay in while we're there. They said sure. I talked to my sister this morning and she told me that my bro in law really doesn't feel comfortable with us staying there, because I've never actually met Leiah in person.

Don't get me wrong, I totally understand  where they're coming from. They don't understand online friendships and meeting people online. I guess in their minds they're like "She doesn't even know this person, she could be an axe murderer for all she knows!" (You have to admit Leiah...that's some funny shit!) Some people just don't get it!

But...they shouldn't have said yes in the first place then. Or they should have told me sooner! I mean, 25 days before I'm supposed to get there? Come on now! Uugh...

I was so upset to tell Leiah. I mean, what kind of hostess does that make me? And what does that say about my paranoid family? I wish I had the money to rent her a room. But this trip is already costing me a fortune, if I had known sooner I could have made a point to save up some more money.

But...Leiah is a trooper! She's still gonna come down, if she can't get a room she's going to just come down for one day and then drive home (an hour and half away) that night, I hope she doesn't have to do that though!

I'm just thankful that I'm still gonna get to meet her! Yay!

Share A Spoon, Pepparoni Bread and Cajun Seafood Bread

 



You can go check out Brandee's blog to join in the fun!


Don makes this amazing bread usually every year during the holidays and for the superbowl! It's so damn yummy! I think the only thing I'd do differently would be to sprinkle some of the cheeses on top before baking it!

Ingredients
1 (1 pound) loaf frozen bread dough, thawed
1 egg, beaten
4 ounces sliced pepperoni sausage
1 cup shredded mozzarella cheese
1/4 cup grated Parmesan cheese
1 1/2 teaspoons Italian seasoning
Directions
Preheat oven to 375 degrees F (190 degrees C). Lightly grease a baking sheet.
Roll frozen bread dough out into a rectangle. Brush dough with beaten egg. Arrange pepperoni, mozzarella cheese and parmesan cheese over the dough. Sprinkle on the Italian seasoning. Roll up dough like a jelly roll and pinch seam to seal; place, seam side down, on prepared baking sheet.
Bake in preheated oven for 40 minutes, or until golden.

You didn't think I was going to do a SAS entry without adding a little Cajun something in it did you?  My Bff's Mom makes this. Now you know I don't eat seafood, but I have to admit, it looks YUMMY!

2 lbs shrimp, raw, peeled and deveined
1 lb imitation lump crabmeat
2 oz Tabasco Sauce
1 stick butter
½ Tbsp chopped garlic
1/8 tsp Cayenne pepper
½ Tbsp black pepper
2 pints heavy whipping cream
1/8 cup corn starch mixed in
1/4 cup cold water
Small French bread or any good baking bread and cover with Mozzarella cheese.

Directions:

Melt butter over medium heat. Add garlic and both peppers. Blend and cook for a couple of minutes. Add hot sauce and cream and bring as close to a boil as possible without actually boiling the mixture. When it’s steaming and on the brink of boiling, add the cornstarch mixture, stirring constantly. When the mixture begins to thicken, stir in the shrimp and crabmeat and cook until steaming again. Sauce is ready when the shrimp are cooked through(usually 6-8 minutes). Spread mixture over Kaiser rolls or good baking bread and cover with Mozzarella cheese. Bake at 400 degrees until cheese is melted and browning around edges.

I didn't have pics of either of these recipes so I found both these images on Google images!

So my dr's appointment went good yesterday. I was worried that my dr was going to make me go get injections in my neck (it's an epidural but they do it in your neck instead of your lower back. Hurts like a bitch!!) But nope! She decided that I needed injections in my shoulders.

                                      (Totally not my hairy shoulder!!! I shaved mine this morning!)
Seven of them to be exact. I was scared shitless but honestly, it wasn't bad..at all. She sprayed this cold (like ice) stuff on the area, which immediately made it numb and then she'd give me the injection in that area. The only time it hurt was when she got deep into my muscle, the muscle would start twitching, which apparently it was supposed to do. The pain was somewhere between a misquito bite and a bee sting. Not bad at all. Then she'd move on to the next injection site.

I'm sore as hell right now, but I can feel it working already. When I took my shirt off and she started feeling my shoulders to ask me where it hurt the worst she freaked out. She said "My God, your muscles are as hard as a rock!!" Totally not in a good way! Well, I am kinda buff, but I didn't tell her that! Haha! You don't know how bad I wanted to say "Hello??? What do you think I've been telling you for the last year?"

So, I've got my fingers crossed that this will help alleviate some of the pain, numbness, tingling, and muscle spasms that I've been dealing with!

Home Makeovers....

Don and I have been talking about redoing our kitchen, I'm bored with the whole room. I'd love to redo our cabinets and maybe the floors. We're also looking at new kitchen tables, ours is getting worn down. I love looking at new furniture. What woman doesn't right? Lol...

I've never really been a huge fan of black (or dark) furniture but for some reason this kitchen table caught my eye. I have a huge crush on it right now!!

 What kind of furniture do you like?

I Need Some Prayers Y'all!

I got a phone call from my Sister yesterday. My Dad is having surgery AGAIN this Friday. Some of you may remember that he had a internal defibrillator put in 7 or 8 months ago (heart surgery #1). That one stopped working/malfunctioned and they had to take it out (surgery #2) and remove the scar tissue that surrounded it, then put a new one in (surgery #3).

Apparently now he's gotten an infection in/around (not quite sure on this point, my sister was a bit upset when I talked to her) his heart. So on Friday they're going to remove it AGAIN. They're going to keep him in the hospital for 3-5 days and then try to put a new one on the other side of his chest.

Y'all he's weak, he's tired, he's 70 years old. When is enough enough? I mean really, he really just needs a break. He needs to feel better already damn it.

In 26 days I'm going home and I'm terrified that he's not going to make it that long. I just want to see him, to hug him and hold his hand. I want to spend a day with him, taking care of him and listening to his stories. Please God, please let him last long enough for me to see him again!!

Say a prayer for my Daddy please!

I'm an emotional wreck. I mentioned last week that I'm going back to school to finish getting my GED. I still haven't been yet. I'm either not sleeping or the damn fibromyalgia is flaring up. I didn't sleep at all last night. I got my make up on, and got my hair fixed this morning. And passed the eff out on the couch. Once again, no school.

Ok y'all...pity party over. I found a meme that I've never participated in before so I thought I'd play along. If you'd like to join in the fun, you can go here.

1. What is your favorite Mexican dish? I don't think there's a Mexican dish I've found that I don't like lol. I'd have to say chimichanga's and guacamole. Yummy. Now I'm hungry for some!

2. When you were a kid, did you get started on your homework right away after school, or did you procrastinate?
I got started on it (usually) on the bus lol. I was a nerdy girl when I was a kid. Go figure, now I can't manage to get my ass to school to finish my damn GED.


3. What is your favorite store for home furnishings?
I have a couple. Pottery Barn, Kirklands, Pier 1.

4. When you were young, did you like school lunches?
about as much as the next person

5. Is religion a crutch?
Who am I to say that it is or it isn't? It's whatever you want it to be.

6. In your region, what is the "big" (most popular in the community or state) high school sport?
I'd say football and wrestling

7. Do you consider yourself rich?
If were speaking about $$$, hells no! Far from it. If we're speaking about happiness and love, I'm a frickin' billionaire ha!

8. Which of these would you have the best chance for success in administering:
A) CPR
B) Heimlich Maneuver - I saw my Mom save a toddler when I was little, I never forgot how to do it after that!
C) Changing a flat tire

9. Which dance would you prefer to learn & why:
A) Salsa
B) Hip Hop - because it's my favorite music and because it looks so damn fun!
C) Waltz
D) Swing

10. What's the worst news you've ever delivered to someone?
Telling my two older sisters that our baby sister passed away. Even though we knew she was sick (she'd been sick since she was two and passed when she was 13) it was still a shock to all of us. It was a hard time in all of our lives.

11. Name something you learned in college that had nothing to do with classes or academics.
haven't gotten there yet. Great way to make a person feel like a schumck. Just sayin'!

12. New variation on an old question: If there's a song in your head that just won't get out, what is your favorite (or most repeated) line in that song?
Bitches lookin' at me strange but you know I don't care, step up in this mf'er just a swingin' my hair! Haha!! I LOVE Snoop!!

Don't forget those prayers y'all, please!!

Another birthday....30 Days of Truth, Day 21.

Day 21 → (scenario) Your best friend is in a car accident and you two got into a fight an hour before. What do you do?

Really? Is this even a necessary question? I would think that most people would do what I would do.

I'd be there in a heartbeat! I mean, she's my bff after all! I probably wouldn't leave her side, I'd stay there and support her, love her...he'll I'd even change diapers...if I had to! I mean I love her and all...but (eww) still, I'd do it! I'd take her kids to my house and let them stay with me until she was home. Whatever she needed from me, I do for her.

Including the ass kicking she would get (as soon as I knew that she was ok) for pissing me off in the first place!! Haha!

I'm sitting here watching Don play a game on the PS3. I've got some good ol' Steve Miller Band going on my laptop! Now there's some "happy" music for ya!

Today is my big sisters birthday! I'm so thankful that we're back on speaking terms and that she's in a happy and loving relationship with a wonderful guy! I wrote a blog entry about her ex kicking her out when she was going through testing to see if she had breast cancer a while back (I ended up deleting all of my early blog entries!). She came home from work one day and he told her to get out. No "you can stay here till you find somewhere to go" nothing like that...just get out! She didn't even suspect that anything like that was coming, especially with what was going on with her health at the time! F*cker! I swear, I'd (still) love to beat his pansy ass for that one!

Anyhappyeffinbirthday, I love you big sis! I can't wait to get home in 26 days  and spend some quality time you know, drinking and stuffs and Diann!!

So, 3 birthdays, 3 days in a row in my family. Whew....shits exhausting yo! But we're all good for now. Until September 1st, MY BIRTHDAY!! I don't know what in the hell I'm excited about. I'm turning 41. What's so damn exciting about that y'all? Lol...

Still having a bit of a flare up today, but it's going away! Dr's appointment tomorrow, I'm guessing my dr's gonna say that it's time for me to consider those injections in my neck...I don't want to but nothing else is making the damn pain go away. So I guess I'll know after tomorrow! Wish me luck!

Somebody's getting some birthday booty!

I had to write a special (second) post today. It's a special day!! Today this hunk of gorgeousness...

 is celebrating a special birthday! Today he turned 50! Yeah...50! He's pretty damn hot for 50 huh? Lol...

Happy birthday Baby!
I just wanted to tell you, especially today that I love you, and I'm so damn thankful to have you in my life!! The last 5 years we've had together have been the best of my life! Thank you for making every day more special than the one before it! Love you!

Meet Me on Monday

If you'd like to play along you can go here.

Questions:

1. What is your favorite kind of doughnut?

Raspberry filled! I hurt myself!

2. How often do you pray?
 At least once a day.

3. What is your favorite kind of music?
This is such a hard one for me to answer, it changes daily. Right now, I'm loving this cd...

 If I had to choose one genre though, I'd have to say hip hop! It just puts me in a good mood.

4. What do you order when you eat Chinese food?
 Crispy chicken lo mein! Love it! (couldn't find a pic)

5. Would you rather snowboard in the winter or swim in the summer?

  I'd rather be floating on a raft, relaxing! Preferably with a fruity drink in my hand!

 Fibromyalgia is kicking my ass today! I'll be scarce! 

So Blue.... A Picture Post!

See this gorgeous baby? Today this gorgeous, adorable, beautiful, precious little boy is a man. Well, to the rest of the world (today) he's a 21 year old man. To me...he's still this little boy. My baby.

                                            (they're not 12 in that pic! they're probably 9 or 10!)

I can't begin to tell you the mix of emotions I'm feeling today. I'm excited for what the future holds for him. I'm scared...he's a 21 year old boy y'all, wouldn't you be scared? Lol... I'm sad, because I can't be there with him today.

Actually, I'm heartbroken because I can't be with him today.  Even though I know I'd be spending the day helping him nurse a hangover lol. Yeah...he's my kid!!

                                                          (Rusty and Chief 13 years old)

Lol... Actually I just read that he and Chief (Brennon, one of his best friends) went to the casino, and apparently lost their asses at black jack but had a blast anyway lol. This two kids are hilarious together! When I went on Chief's profile to snag this pic, this is the caption that is under it....

"We didn't play around!! ... We were some dirty minded, alchohol consuming, women chasing 13 year olds who meant business!! ..."

 It's so funny to look at these pics of Rusty and Chief over the years. Chief used to be as round as he was tall! People at school used to call them "Stick and Butterball!" Lol... They've both grown up to be so damn handsome! But boy...has Chief changed!!

                                                        (They were probably 9 or 10 here)

Honestly, one of the reason's I'm up at 4:30 am writing this is because I was so worried about him tonight (was scared he'd end up driving after having some drinks) that I couldn't sleep. I laid in bed and cried for almost an hour! Not because I was worried, OK...that was part of it, but it was mostly because I'm not there to share this special day with him!

 These are pics that Rusty and Chief both posted on FB tonight....

 

                       (My babies all grown up! Hell...Chief might as well be mine!Rusty is on the left!)

How handsome are these boys?? Can't wait to see them!  28 more days y'all! YIPPIE!

I'm going to enclose the letter that I sent to Rusty in his birthday card. There was so much more that I wanted to say, but I just couldn't find the words! I'll be throwing pics in throughout! (In no particular order!)

Dear Rusty,

As many times as I’ve sat and thought about this day, your 21st birthday, I can’t believe it’s here. I will always think of you with so much love and pride, for the boy you once were and the man you have become.

I have loved you since the day I found out that you were on your way into my life. From that very moment, I knew a love that I’d never known before.

I swear it seems like yesterday that I was rocking you to sleep in your cradle. There are so many things that I want to say you, I hope that in this letter I’m able to express it all to you.

I can remember the day you were born like it was yesterday. It was too soon, three months early. I was so scared. I’m not sure what scared me more, the fact that you were three months premature or the fact that I was about to be a Mother.

 You were so sick, the doctors didn’t think you were going to make it through the night. Momma (Your Mamaw) was so worried for me (and you) that she made your Aunt Diann spend the night with me at the hospital, so I would have someone there to support me once they let me see you.

I’ll never forget, for as long as I live, walking into the nursery that night. There you were, the tiniest baby I’d ever seen. I know that I should have been scared, but I wasn’t. The minute I laid my eyes on you this sense of pride filled my heart. It was like nothing I’d ever experienced in my life. All I could think was “That’s MY baby, I made him!” I’m sure that sounds corny to you, and you probably wont understand it until you have kids of your own.

You picked your head up, opened your eyes and looked at me. I couldn’t believe it, you were only 3 pounds but you were able to pick up your head and look at me.

 

From that moment on I knew that my life was not my own anymore, my life belonged to you, my life was all about you.

  

God knows, I’ve made a million and one mistakes throughout your life. I hope you don’t hold those against me Rus. I tried, I really did. I did the very best that I knew how to do.
 
Somehow, (despite all of my mistakes) you’ve turned into a wonderful man. I couldn’t be prouder of you Rusty. You’ve gone above and beyond everything I ever imagined. You have fulfilled all of the hopes and expectations a Mother can have for her son.

 Because of my stupid mistakes you weren’t always surrounded by men who could be good role models in your life. And yet look at you. You’re one of the hardest working kids I know.

You could be one of those (young) men that thinks they can get through life just bumming around and living off of other people, thinking that everyone owes you something. I’m so proud that you’re not. I’m so proud that you have that drive, that determination.

I think that one of the qualities that I love the most about you is that you know what you want, and you don’t stop until you get it. You set goals for yourself. You’re also not afraid to speak your mind. If you have something to say, you say it.

You’re everything I never was. From the very beginning that’s all I’ve ever wanted for you. I wanted you to have everything I didn’t, I wanted you to be everything that I’m not. You’ve far surpassed that.

There’s so much that I want for you, for your future. I want you to be successful, and happy. I want you to find love, to have a family. I worry that because I’ve been so unsuccessful in relationships (until now) that you’re jaded about love and relationships. Please don’t be.

 

I’m sure you’ve heard the quote “It’s better to have love and lost than to have never loved at all.” It’s so true Rusty. Being in love is a wonderful thing. Sure, you might get hurt, but it’s so worth it.
You might get your heart broken 10 times, but find the most wonderful woman the 11th time. If you shut yourself off from love, you’ll miss out on that woman, and the happiest times of your life.

Trust in your instincts and you’ll find the right person for you. When you do find that person, love them and respect them with all that you have. If you do that, you’ll get the same in return. Always be honest with yourself, and with the person you love. Above everything else, make sure that you’re happy.

I know, you probably think I’m the last person who should be giving you advice on love and relationships, trust me, I’ve had a lot of time to sit back and reflect. I’ve seen all of the mistakes that I’ve made. I’d give anything to be able to go back in time, to be able to change the way I’ve done things. I don’t want you to live with the same regrets that I do honey.

I want you to find what it is that you want your career to be, and I hope that you go for it.

I know you’ve talked for years about wanting to work for the Wildlife and Fisheries. Go for it. It’s never too late. Never. Do what you love Rusty. I would hate to think of you spending years working in the oil industry, being worn down by long hours of thankless work.

I hope that you’re always proud of where you came from and I don’t mean your location, (though there’s nothing wrong with Cajun pride!!) I mean your family. Sure, we’re nuts. We’re drama. Don’t ever forget we’re your family. I wish that you made more time for my side of the family. They love you Rusty, and they miss you.

I hope that you take time for you, for the things you enjoy to do. Make time for your friends, your family. Don’t spend your life working your ass off. Yeah, the money is nice, but at the end of the day, it’s just money. Your family and your friends are what’s important in life.

There are so many “moments” in the last 21 years that I treasure. I just want to list some of them for you.

The nights of “dancing” you to sleep when you were sick. I’d put on some soft music, hold you in my arms and I’d dance real slow around the room until you feel asleep.

Walking into your room every morning and saying “Good morning sunshine!” and seeing that adorable smile on your face. This was our routine every single morning.

The first time you said Momma.

When you were four and broke your nose, I was hysterical, you told me “It’s OK Momma, I’m a man, I can take it!”

When I tried to pick up a butterfly so you could touch it and you said “NO MOMMA! You’ll rub the butter off of it!!!”

Those adorable little cowboy boots that you used to wear (and kick the ever livin’ shit out of my shins with).

Your first day of school.

How you used to bring me “pretty” rocks home from school that you thought I would like. I still have some of them.

How you used to stand in the outfield during T-ball and pick flowers for me.

When you graduated 6th grade and I cried. You were so mad at me for that.

When you graduated high school, I promised you I wouldn’t cry. But when it came time for all of you kids to give your Mom a rose, you couldn’t find me. When I saw you ask your Aunt Diann “where’s my Momma?” I lost it. Thank you for not getting mad at me for that.

There are so many other things that I could mention Rusty. There are so many times that I’ve been so proud that all I want to do is cry.

I know you hate it when I get all sappy with you so I’m trying to keep this short for you.

Always remember, that I love you more than I’ve ever even imagined possible. You’ve never once disappointed me. Not once. I can never express to you how proud I am for the man you’ve become. Please, just stay on the path you’re on now and you’ll have a wonderful life.
I love you, and thank you for making my life so amazing! You’ll always be my baby, my everything.

I love you,
Momma

What I wouldn't give to be able to blink and be in Louisiana with my son today!