Have you ever had a dream that you didn't want to wake up from?

March 31, 2010

Before I forget y'all go check out The Only Parent Chronicles please! I did a guest post for her and it's all about Louisiana! So go on over and leave some love!
 
Now on to the serious post. I'll warn you now that it may sound a bit depressing, so if you don't want to hear it...leave now!

I woke up from the most amazing dream this morning. It was so amazing that I didn't want to wake up! I dreamed that God decided to give me another week with my Mom. She was so beautiful, she was still bald but she had the most amazing smile.

She told me how proud she was of me, and my Son. She couldn't get over how well Rusty turned out. She just kept going on and on about how proud she is that he's such a good (young) man.

She told me how happy she was for me that I found Mr Man, and that she couldn't have picked anyone better for me if she tried. She said that he's everything she ever wished that I'd find in a man. She said that she could tell how happy I am with him. She said she loves him.

She told me that she's happy, she's not in pain anymore and she lives in a beautiful place with my little Sister now. And then she died again.

I woke up bawling my eyes out. I cried for a hour. I mean...what a beautiful yet cruel dream!! She died again?? Are you kidding me? Did I really have to go through that all over again?

When I turned on the TV the Today show was on. I never watch the Today show, NEVER! I'm a Good Morning America girl, if anything. Usually I don' watch the morning news though. Anyway, there was a story about the Jack and Jill Late Stage Cancer foundation. You have to go and check their website out! I don't know how, but somehow I'm getting involved with this organization!

I'm just going to focus on the part where she said she is happy and no longer in pain. I love you Momma!

14 comments:

G.Older Man said...
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Dee said...

Chills and tears, boo. Wow. Hang on to the good part. I really believe that relatives who have passed sometimes come back to us in dreams, because that is the only time we are "open" to communicate.

Ian said...

I had a similar dream about my mom a couple weeks ago. Still pondering if I should post about it. It tore me apart.

How old were you when she passed?

Danica said...

That had to hurt. I lost my mom to cancer two and a half years ago and it hurts like hell. My one wish is to have her back if only for a day.

Meeko Fabulous said...

That's an awesome dream! She totally visited you last night! That's awesome. Cruel ending, but awesome!

Louisiana Belle said...

I'm sorry about your mom. I dread that day myself. And with my mom's Parkinson's her death won't be pretty.

One of the few times I dreamed of my grandmother she was chastising me for not speaking to my aunt (her daughter). It would've been nice to know where she was and who she was with. That would be so cool. I think you're lucky to have had that dream...but I am sorry for your pain.

Yankee Girl said...

Dreaming about lost loved ones is such a mix of joy and sadness. I know it all depends on the dream, but even a good dream will leave me sad, missing the one I lost.

I just had a dream last night about my grandmother who passed a few years ago. It was a nice dream and my grandmother told me she is always with me. Now I miss her so much.

June said...

I'm sorry you had to experience the death part again but focusing on all those wonderful things she said to you is so good and heart warming.

Glad to hear you slept!

Danielle said...

I have always heard that loved ones come to us in our dreams. It does sound bitter sweet. Sorry girl!

Amy said...

I like to think that the dreams we have of loved ones after they pass is a way of communicating with them beyond the grave. While that may sound weird or naive, it's also comforting to feel like you've had a bit more time with them.

I saw that Jack and Jill foundation this morning!!!! (I'm a die-hard Today girl:) Amazing organization to be a part of it seems.

So sorry for your loss.

Tattoos and Teething Rings said...

Aw, that stinks. Go back to bed, maybe you'll have the same dream!! (Have you ever tried that?)

Jimmy said...

Memories come in many forms and no matter how recent or long ago you lost your Mom this is a memory that shows how much you Love her.

"she said she is happy and no longer in pain." this is a message to comfort you so be proud she shared this message with you it is a sign of her Love.

I sure enjoyed my visit and will add you to my list of must reads.

DrSoosie said...

I saw the same thing on the today show and I was eating my oatmeal with tears splashing into my bowl. Your mom is always in your mind and will appear again and again in your dreams as she is part of you.

The Blue Zoo said...

AW, honey. Im sorry. Ive never had anything like that happen to me. Maybe just try to focus on the good parts of the dream?

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