Rawr...Friday Confessional

Yes Ladies (and Gents) it's that time of the week again, time to let your confessions flow! Get it all out now so you can have a good weekend instead of holding in all that crap that weighs you down! It's really easy, just head on over to Mamarazzi's blog for all the details.

Well I'm busting at the seams so lets get started, shall we??

I confess...I'm pretty excited about my new layout. I've still got a couple of kinks to work out of it, should get that done today though.


I confess..I'm having a hard time adjusting to being back in NC. My extended trip home (Louisiana) spoiled me. I'm so wrapped up in my hopes of moving back there that it's been hard for me to readjust to being back here. 


I confess...Now that I am home (NC) I realize how many fake ass people I'm surrounded by. And I hate it. I'm not a fake person, never have been. So to sit and pretend that I don't know how certain people really feel about me and how fake they're being about it...it makes me ill. I've realized that people who I thought were friends are only a friend when I have something to offer them. These are the type of people who I'm ready to be rid of.


I know I talk about people from Louisiana people, Cajun people like they're from another world, but in a lot of ways it's true. A Cajun person will not be fake with you, if they don't like you...you'll know it. Just be real people.


I confess...I have a dr's appointment today and I'm a bit worried. Recently I've noticed a change in my "breast tissue" (the only way I know how to describe it) so I called my Niece (she's an RN) and asked her about it.


Since my Aunt had breast cancer my Niece said it was best if I get to the Dr asap.  I'm scared. I'm sure it's nothing but just the possibility...scares the you know what out of me. I already have a mammogram scheduled in October but I'm guessing they're going to move it up. Not looking forward to seeing the Boob Nazi's. But I know I need to.


I confess...I closed my Twitter account. I couldn't figure out how to get my blog entries to stop showing up on there so I just closed the damn thing. 


I confess...I've been seriously considering closing down Homesick Cajun. I used to love that I was "incognito" on here. But so many family members have found out my blog address that I can't honestly express my true feelings, or what's going on in my life without the damn rumor mill starting. Lets be honest, there's just some bitches who don't need to know my business. Just like I don't need to know theirs. 


I confess...I'm really going to hate losing my "Homesick Cajun" name though. I love this name, and it's really who/what I am. Once we move to Louisiana I'll come up with something cheeky I'm sure. I'll let (most of you) y'all know when I do close up shop here and what the new addy will be.


I confess...I've had my nose buried deep into a GED math book for the last week. I'm determined to go in to class, take the practice test and (hopefully) have my teacher schedule me to take the actual test. I also have to take the essay part of the GED test and then I'll be done. I'm ready for this shit to be over with lol.


I confess...Hubby has a wedding to perform down at the beach on Sunday. I'm excited to get a chance to go to the beach. I'm hoping that once he's done performing the ceremony we can just go sit on the beach and relax. I NEED THAT. 


Well, that's all I can think of for this week. No, head on over to Mamarazzi's and link up! Hope you all have a great weekend!

It's A.....A Letter To My Grandchild

In one of the entries I posted last week I mentioned that I was trying to figure out what I want my grand baby to call me.  I think I also mentioned that my Nieces son calls me Onnie since he can't say Aunt. Well since that name seemed to stick that's what I've decided to let the baby call me.

Yesterday my Son and his girlfriend had their ultrasound to find out the sex of my grand baby. It broke my heart that I couldn't be there. The kids decided that they were going to try to Facetime with me if the facility had wifi, they didn't. So the called me and put me on speaker phone so I could hear it. I couldn't understand a word that was being said but my Son's best friend Nick (the baby's Godfather) was sweet enough to talk me through it.

I cried the entire time because I couldn't be there, because I was missing one of the most exciting times in my Son's (and mine) life. Just hearing the baby's heartbeat was enough to send me into tears!

In the first picture that I was able to see the baby is sucking it's thumb.

The next words I heard was the entire room saying....

Though my Son and were both hoping for a boy we couldn't be happier to know that in four short months there is going to be a beautiful little girl that is a mixture of my Son and his beautiful girlfriend to spoil rotten. I was sobbing like a baby. Lol I pretty much cried all day yesterday. I'm over the moon for this baby already!

Introducing Peyton Claire....

She's already stolen my heart!

Dear Peyton,

I never thought that I would get to this stage of my life, where anticipating your arrival is almost as exciting for me as waiting for your dad to be born was. I was wrong. Since the moment I found out about you I've been over the moon. 

I spend hours sitting around imagining what your going to look like, what your laugh is going to sound like. I imagine watching your Daddy holding you and spoiling you. I imagine watching your Mommy care for you and fall in love with you more than she already is. I imagine you running to me, your Onnie, when your Mommy and Daddy wont let you have your way.

I promise to be a fun Onnie, I'm going to read you stories like I used to read to your daddy, I promise to teach you how to give me "pinch kisses" just like your Daddy did when he was little. I promise to get down in the floor with you and play with your toys and to make you laugh until your tummy aches.

Together you and I will have lots of fun, and when your mom and dad are not around I'll probably let you get away with things that they might not approve of, but as you will learn, that's what good Onnie's do. They spoil you and give you things that you won't get elsewhere!

I'm just so excited that you are coming soon! This will be a new rebirth - for both you and I. Your birthday will always be a special day for me, (especially if you're born on my birthday!) and when you get bigger the parties will get grander and the spoiling will get worse. You will cry to me "please Onnie can I have this or that", and honestly, if I have the money and you've been good, you'll probably bat your eyes at me and get your way.

There are so many people I wish you could have known, baby. Maybe you met them on your way here?  Your Maw Maw Rose, your Aunt Sissy. What beautiful people there have been in your mom and dad’s lives. You wont get to meet them, but their inspiration is still felt by the people around you, so in a round-about way you will know them. And I'll be sure that you learn about who they were and how much they would have loved meeting you, and spoiling you.

So littlest one, I am so happy you are coming to meet me soon. I can't wait to see you. I can't wait to see if you'll have your daddies eyes, your mothers lips. What will you be like? Who will you be? Borrow a little from mommy and a little from daddy. But most of all, I know, you will be you. I can say with some certainty you will be independent. I’m pretty sure you will be considerate and loving, intelligent and thoughtful, creative and articulate. I know these things because that’s what you live with.

Most of all, you will be you. My little unborn baby Peyton, your entire life is still ahead of you. A blank canvas for you to paint your life on. You are not limited to being mini-Amanda or mini-Rusty. Amazing as they are, and as much as you will learn from them. You will be you, and I can’t wait to get to know the person you will become.

There are a few things that I hope that you inherit from your Mommy and Daddy. Your Mommy's cute girly style, and her sweetness. Your Daddy's infectious laugh, his compassion for other people. I hope that you're as outspoken as both of them, and also that you have their love for their families.

I hope that I am as important to you as your Mommy and Daddy's grandparents are to them. I hope that I am someone you'll always remember lovingly, and that I'm someone who you'll turn to when you need someone to talk to, just like your Mommy does her Grandmother. 

Most of all Peyton, I hope that you please remember that nobody except your mother and father will ever love you the way I (and your other Grandma) do. I'm so excited to meet you little one, I can't wait to hold you in my arms and look into your eyes.

Love always,

Onnie

TTUS Getting Back Into the Swing of Things...Slowly.

It's been a little hard for me to get into the hang of blogging again (in case you haven't noticed) so I decided to link up with Shawn  and Impulsive.
I have baby fever. As I mentioned in my last entry, I found out that I'm going to be a Grandma this past December and I couldn't be happier. My Pinterest is overflowing with baby stuff.

My Son got to feel the baby move for the first time yesterday. I cried like a baby when I found out. This whole experience has turned me into an emotional, blubbering idiot.

I've started tanning again. My (Podunk) little town is now down to two tanning salons. One is awesome the other is dirty, their beds are old and the staff lazy. I love the salon I'm going to but DAMN! It takes an act of congress just to get an appointment.

Hubby's daughters are coming down for Easter dinner this weekend. Should be a nice day.

I really need to wash my car but every time I've planned to wash it the weather doesn't play along!

I'm completely addicted to The Hunger Games books. I finished reading the second book yesterday and I'm depressed. I'm depressed cause I know I only have one more book to read and then it's over.

Well, that's all for me, y'all have a great day!